what a joy when the spirit brings you awareness
awareness of your faults
awareness of your energy
awareness of what was
awareness of what is
awareness of why you can't stop
awareness of why we act
awareness of the crowd
awareness of the why
awareness of the how
everyone has an opinion
everyone says they care
who goes there
a sinner and a holy one
can it be dangerous to be too open
to be too understanding
i met different people
i seen different people
attempts on my life (spirit)
attempts to violate (spirit)
attempts to trespass (spirit)
am i protected, spirit?
i see clearer, spirit
walking together the heart in tune
i hear you
i feel you
i was caught up in the mud
the mud of songs they sing
caught up in the truth spirit brings
mad for a reason
but at the same time no reason
it all shall fade away
inserting themselves in my energy
wanting a counsel with me
when i am not holier than them
ive said it before and i will say it again
there's better teachers out there friends
i am a sunflower warrior by nature
the fight in me is a gift and a curse
the visions are a gift and a curse
i have ideas, i want to make them a reality
a granddaughter of an imprisoned man
granddaughter of a fearless woman
my attentive ear listening
my attentive ear after play
efforts they made floated away
but really floated my way
i want a legacy for me
but for my families stake
they must get a plate
i must honor what they gave
fighting for my words
fighting for my ideas
that God gave
maybe i held on too tight and went the wrong way
but God makes it clear
everything will be used for good
lessons i needed to learn
let go of my anger
you are not my anchor
you are not my safe space
in the moment i shout but i am out
out of the dark
running wild like a free horse
a free horse can be free and domesticated
to live with its new family
to live a life meant for (me)
my past i lived my wildest dream
i ran free, i lived a dream
i was captured by the enemy in the spirit
the enemy brought more enemies
i cried out
i wrote it out
but nothing could get it out
i had let the fire grow larger
i had to nearly drown
i had to let go
i couldn't go out
i couldn't dress up
i mean for what
God they did their crafts against me
and they declared defeat
the raised glasses to me
but not of glory but to my defeat
it was torture you see but i had to endure
what all the Moses' in my family couldn't defeat
luckily i had he
Jesus, reminding me daily, reminding me in dreams
hey remember me, you are my daughter
you are of me
how could it be, the lord knows me
i never wanted the glory just for me
but to expand my families tree
maybe enjoy a Cuba Librrrr
maybe see what money can do
maybe it wasn't time, and that is cool
i know now it is true, they do what they do
i accused them & i accuse you(me)
you may not have done what they've done
but you sinned too
did the lord not say he will fight for you
sunflower warrior these here giants aren't meant
to be slayed by you
your existence alone to them is "cruel"
because it is living proof they moved like fools
it is proof that God is real
because after all the attacks, (i've seen it, that's a fact)
you still spat back
you went at the juggler
you didn't take it, you didn't lie flat
you showed your teeth & you growled back
i applaud you for that but no more
i shall be the one to lay them flat
no need to react
kisses to the birds
gratitude for the sun
morning no more, every day is a grand rising run
why is it so appetizing
to know you are loved from heaven
from the core
the underworld the ancestors caught up in the war
dashed to a waiting place
dashed to see what their hearts will say
do you remember seeing the cat & the darkness slain
i remember the aftermath
i couldn't believe it
i met the young man
wondering outside
i knew i owed him something
some kind words, some advice
let him know you'll be alright
never give up the fight
best of luck to you
you're that guy
he was someone just passing me by
all the dirt was cleared alright
Jesus made a way so we can shine
can we do it all alone
i say no
but i am "weak" when it comes to
trespassing against the meek, trespassing against my family, trespassing against the me
i have been trespassed against and who in the flesh defends me
i received love from strangers but what did it mean
my family tree wanted me to be a leaf to leave
but they knew not what they did
by the ones we love we want to be respected
but like Joseph often we are sold and neglected
it is the time they speak of
family against each other
cast your worries to your father
he can help you resolve them, don't be stubborn
don't be like me
be better, in a way that's why i write these letters
although i over share it's clear
it's a duty
please relieve me of perfection
i am simply a being
a sinner, a person
me you don't follow
me you don't worship
don't hold me higher because i converse closely with the father
he is my refuge, my friend, in my darkest days he made a way
a way for my smiles to exist
a fighting spirit who clings to bliss
that drops to its knees and knows it's weak
when it's been hit
greatest is HE within me
i simply trust, i simply believe.
-La'Lee Zion
p.s.
never give up on your dreams, even when you give up...
give them life again... it is important to write your goals down. when you re enter the calm state, where your mind is clear, you can re visit them and you can re invent. God is always there.
✝️🫶🏾