everything mattered more than the light in the daughter
superficially i need be more
superficially i need her youth
superficially i am the guru
superficially i did it first
i placed her under a curse
why her
when it should be me
i want the best i want all the daughter could achieve
i run her through the mud
i made up lies
i made her feel so weak inside
i did my best to make sure she wouldn't survive
i put her under a spell to deceive their eyes
yet this abandoned light kept shining
kept wanting to shine
i threw her out the street wished her homeless
and hope she would die
i was waiting for the call saying she didn't survive
my jealousy and my pride
she yelled at me so i can see
but i knew and i didn't care
i used her rage as a weapon
to take her to court
to make her forfeit her torch
evil consumed me jealousy ruled me
i am a scorned mother
i am a jealous being
i wanted her to rot away and decay
and not be great
that's why i barely raised her
she just went her own ways
every man i put before her
i've been hit and it was her to blame
through it all my daughter smiled
through it all she loved me
through it all it bugged me
if i wasn't who i was i would've helped her
and made her feel lucky
to have a mother figure who loved her
i mean her father wasn't even there
i say i did my best but truly i didn't care
i wanted to live the life
she deserved nothing
only my scraps
her long hair
mine won't grow past my back
how could you compare yourself to your daughter
as she is an extension of you
the pain and anger in her daughter it grew
it grew
she vowed to never look back and to let go
plant a new seed change her name clear her soul
the daughter said i forget i even knew any of you existed
i forget i lived a life with the vicious
my future is nutritious
i wont tell a lie
i'll be one of the snitchiest snitches
i don't know what to say but stay out my way
wished me the worst on my journey
you can never join me leave them all behind
the fakeness and the lies
you have a new mother and a new tribe
the angels of the sky
the trees and the flowers
have adopted you, you are now apart of our tower
my mother is the earth and my father is the most high
gave me the rivers and access worldwide
i am a survivor with joy inside
i let go of the abuse and the gaslight
i change my name
my soul is alright i go by La'Lee Zion
i won't hide
i won't hide
the dark nor the light
- La'Lee Zion