i never wanted to leave you behind
the reality is that history indeed does repeat itself.
see im not saying that i am that person who lived many years ago.
i am saying a man told me that's who i am.
if that's who i am that means i too in a sense come from Egypt.
i too must've been told to flee and go into the desert.
see i have made peace with the ugliness of Egypt.
i have accepted that in this life there is many different avenues and although i won't travel some roads without God, without goodness.
I'm beginning to realize that the good i choose to see in others is not the choice of others.
i could stand and preach to my people, to Gods people, and that's everyone but they may never hear me. it frustrates me, it pains my heart, because Egypt raised me although i didn't agree with everything, my family showed me love.
i learned valuable truths and i did it in the territory of the enemy.
but i never considered them an enemy.
see if i didn't care id shut up.
music raised me in part too..
idolatry is a sin, people often use the church as a way to cover themselves.
i like people who believe what they believe in the open.
it's a mental transition one must go through that takes time.
it takes strength.
many people are intellectuals but they commit the same sin as these ancient fictional people i wrote about which is inspired by the "gods & goddesses" that come from the practice of Yoruba.
see we all have God within us.
& i interpret things a way... it could be wrong but that's why you sit with information & God will confirm for you.
i believe your pain is valid, your reaction to your pain is valid. however we must learn to let go and grow.
God has given me dreams about people and how they relate to my life. God in a way forced me to see look some people will never change. They will look upon you as you are wicked for leaving, they will point to you as if they are living in fresh water and you are moving to muddy water.
when i became consciously aware i may have reacted like that man from long ago but God had blessed me down the road, see i felt guilty, i felt shame, i felt wrong for being so cruel with my words, sometimes the truth hurts, and it hurt me to speak the truth to those i love because they saw it as foolery.
my error is thinking that i can take that yolk of responsibility, my error was using my energy to heal places, people... to use my light in places where they prefer to stay dark. they defend their darkness with words like it is what it is, that's just human nature.. i too used these words and i know what it is all about. they are not wrong though. they are not, however you can only put so much under a rug.
i want to cry, i do. the destruction i seen them take. for the sake of fame, fortune, money, and lust. i don't want to guys to suffer but you've chose.
when i hear my "hotep" brothers speak, my nation of islam brothers, my moorish brothers, my rastafarian brothers speak down against the white man... i hear them, i've been discriminated against but my message is save your fire, remember it was our own people who sold us into the American slave trade.
God is the owner of the earth, the lands, and the sea. I'm glad you mastered yourselves but remove the hate. to know the truth means to move accordingly but it doesn't mean to hate.
my people who have been done in by governments, my heart mourns but it is written do not put your faith nor trust in man.
accepting that only God can fix the world, only Jesus. I can't run from my faith, i've been targeted by high rank demons, so my father assigned me a high rank angel to guard my innocence as i traveled and communed with the wicked.
i forgive the people being used by demons, for self hate was my faith too without Jesus.. i will never reject you.
the harbinger.
the warnings are more intense 😭
cover yourself in the blood
if they not up by now they want to sleep 😭
God Bless Us All
I prayed for you guys ❤️